Focus and Remember

There are times when I am reminded of just how weak I am. Jared and I have received great news in the last couple of weeks (a blog about it all is coming soon!) and I am completely overwhelmed by what God is doing in our lives. We are so blessed!!!

Yet, with this amazing blessing has come much agony on my part. I have been an emotional wreck. Instead of dwelling on God and who He is (not even to mention what He has done), I have been worried sick that something bad is going to happen. I admit that I have been quite disappointed in myself. Why now, of all times, am I in such distress and how unfair am I being to God? The only conclusion that I can come to is that it's an attack. I was talking to a friend yesterday about how easy it seems to get so caught up in life's situations that we forget what God has already done. I am going to try really hard not to do that. In Psalms, David oftened referred to how he remembered what God had done in the past. In Philippians 4: 19 we are reminded to think on the things that are true, noble, just, pure, lovely of good report - and what's more wonderful to think about than God. When I remember what God has brought me through and I focus on God and who He is, an overwhelming peace and joy come over me. It's in these times that I can look up and say, "God, I KNOW that You are in control!"