What If????

It never fails.  Right before or after any big change in my life, I start to freak out...even if it is something I REALLY want.  When we decided to move from Blacksburg, VA to Charlotte, I freaked out (even though I had wanted to get out of Blacksburg before I even moved there.)  Right after we had Addi and brought her home, I freaked out (even though I REALLY wanted her!)  Same thing happened with Brogan (even though I REALLY wanted him!)  Knowing my history, it should not surprise me that I have started freaking out about staying home. 

What if I am not really cut out for being a stay-at-home mom and wife? 
What if the kids hate being around me all the time and miss daycare? 
What if Jared is disappointed with my daily routine? 
What if he loses his job? 
What if we have a financial crisis? 
What if I realize that I made a big mistake? 

What if...what if...what if?  Ugh...the "what if's" are killing me!!! 

So instead....

What if I love staying at home even more than I thought? 
What if the kids think being home with mommy is way better than daycare?
What if we look back at this time and are amazed at how God provided far more than we imagined?
What if the kids only have to go to the doctor for sick visits less than three times each a year?
What if this just happens to be some of the best times of our lives?
What if we love almost every single second of it?

Those "what if's" aren't scary.  They are so wonderful to think about it.  Now if I could just train my mind to think this way all the time.  I am so glad God is patient with me. :)