Anxiety

This happened the last week or so when I was pregnant with Addi and it's happening again this time around...anxiety at night. I will be fine during the day, but when night rolls around, I can't sleep. Or I start to sleep and then I think I can't breathe and I start to feel anxious. So I turn on a light, or a couple lights...or in the case of tonight...a few lights. Jared is sleeping peacefully in our bedroom, Addi is sound asleep in her bedroom, and I have lights on in the kitchen, spare bedroom, living room, one bathroom and two hallways. This is ridiculous. I think I read in one of my pregnancy books that this is actually a hormonal issue and really nothing to worry about, but I do feel rather silly and a little scared that I'll NEVER have another decent night's sleep again. I have prayed about this situation, read my Bible, surfed the internet, talked to myself outloud, watched tv, etc, to make this anxious feeling go away...but NOTHING seems to help. Nothing but sunlight once the morning rolls around. Blogging about this issue is just another attempt to try to deal with this. My hope is that I will read this blog and realize that I am crazy to be up this late and will be able to fall asleep.

I am thankful that at least I do have enough sense about me during these late nights to realize that God is in control and sees my every move. This does help. Admittedly, the anxiety remains, but I am eventually able to relax some in this.