A Letter A Bit Belated

To my sweet baby boy,

I'm ashamed to say that I have yet to write you a letter on this blog and I am almost 36 weeks pregnant with you. Rest assured that not writing to you does not mean that I haven't thought about you, talked to you, and loved you while you're being formed in my womb. You are my son and I am already so proud and thankful to be your mommy!

When I first found out I was pregnant with you, I was scared to death. Your sister was only 6 1/2 months old and I was already feeling overwhelmed with being a mommy to her. I had no idea how I was going to be able to be a good mother to 2 children. As soon as I saw the first ultrasound picture of you, I felt nothing but love and excitement. And as the weeks have turned to months, my excitment about your arrival has increased every single day.

I can't wait to meet you. I can't wait to see what you look like and to hear your first cry. I can't wait to hold you in my arms and kiss your sweet cheeks. I can't wait to hold your hand and tickle your foot and look into your eyes as I tell you how much I love you.

Reality is, I'm still a little scared. I have NO clue how to raise a boy - thank God you have a good daddy that knows about being a man! :) He will show you the ropes and I have no doubt that you will be taught how to love God, respect others and work hard. He is a a perfect role model for you. He will also treat you how to chant, "Men, men, men, men!" all while pumping your fists. He is working on that with you now and it totally won't surprise me if you are saying it when you are born.

You also have an older sister who will teach you how to play and how to enjoy life. She has such a zeal for life and you two are going to have a blast! :) You two will definitely have your arguments, there is no doubt about it...but that's OK...you two will also have a bond that is like no other.

I am going to do my best to teach you about compassion, love and how to laugh in even the craziest of circumstances. I want you to looks back on your childhood with the fondest of memories. I will make sure that happens!

Thankfully, your dad and I are keenly aware that we can do nothing in this life without Christ. As we cling to Him, we know He will continue to guide us to be the people He wants us to be. And we want you to learn how to cling to Christ as well. This is why we are going to allow you and your sister to see us pray and read our bibles. This is why we will take you to church. This is why we will serve others as a family. God created you and we don't want you to EVER forget that. As hard as it is for me to even fathom, God's love for you is so much stronger than our love for you. He knows you better than you even know yourself...and He always will.

And now, as we prepare and wait for your arrival, all I can say is...I love you and will see you soon! Enjoy your last few days in there...and get ready for the ride of your life! Our family of four is going to have so much fun!!!

Love,
Mommy